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Sunday, May 28, 2006

2 am

wat time liao..i am still studying??ahahaz...sound like i am so hardworking right...ok..i study for five min and watch tv for fifteen min...omg...i am so fuking hardworking...wanted to complete my memorizing my company law today...but...look like i am so tired and ready to pounce onto my bed...

i am studying in front of my tv...watching tv to be exact...and study during the advertisment....haizz....no mood lei..feeling down...but went to the australia open hse today...its great...eh..so far i heard the highest requirement is 65% of As and Bs...eh..hehe...i qualify...but still got two more sem lei...dunno by that time what will be my grades...

forcasted grades for this sem...all Bs...and pls do not have more then 1 C....i want to go australia de...my As and Bs currently stand at 80%...but i muz not be complacent...or later fall short of 65% then i can forget about going to australia..wanna go overseas then get the best uni and go correct?get those uni that even tom dick and harry can go de..then i might as well study ACCA...

one more thing..i know she seldom see my blog...just ask her how her tutorial...from her ans i know she has not change...well..my advice to her is that if she does not change...even she go to australia she may not graduate from there...haizz...i find myself super slack liao..but i no words to describe her...

~}Dreaming of you @ {11:04 AM}

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

flop

haizz...sianz la... think i am in the midst of breakdown liao...the last two days was a total flop..i did the test..and i know how i have done...i was so sad yesterday and my head was spinning fast...finally went out and catch a movie with myself...ya...haizz...i need a relieve yesterday and was determine to watch the movie...watching movie is fake but hiding my emotion is true...i need somewhere to hide...to conceal my emotions...

and u know wat..i was tryin so hard to hide my tears from others in the bus...88...yeah..i am going back to where i start...i need help...fuk...i went hm with tears....wa fuk...hide in my room until 3 am...sianz...and guess wat i was doing??staring at the walls...and ???....haizzz...

dunno what to do...i am so stress up........

~}Dreaming of you @ {8:09 PM}

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

test!!!

haizzz...next week i will be having my test...damm...i still dunno what the fuk is the notes talking about...haizzz...wanna have a gd start...but...even rejected my friends outing twice and hers once...first time she is calling mi out for lunch...big sacrifice izzit??but...WHAT'S THE POINT...my score will still be lousy...got enough of those craps...shitttt....

WOUND CAN HEAL
LOVE CAN FADE
HONOUR AND GLORY LAST

PLS.....let mi have the power...i need the confidence...

~}Dreaming of you @ {2:42 AM}

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Monday, May 15, 2006

LIFE!!!

so many yrs...in the quest of power, prove of ability and outsmarting ppl are nothing but a vision of smoke...haizz...remember once my manager says to mi..since young..he aspire to be a high flyer in his job...but after attaining a second class honours in the university of manchester, he now yearns for a peaceful and stable life now...

this sem...altogether 13 weeks...strictly speaking, its a total of 52 days of schooling...13 weeks*4 days in sch per week...yes...after this 13 weeks i am going for exams already....sad to say...i haven been doing my bit...i skip tutorials this week...and i thoought i know something about AIS...but actually i know nth...after today tutorial..i indeed know nth...and next week is my test...i dunno wat to do...i wanna cry only...dammm

test is coming...project are coming...effective biz writing report also need to submit...how am i going to finish all that...i want to be a high flyer too...i want to excel in studies...i used to be the top...now i am in the bottom...it hard to accept that i cannot be what i wan to be...it hard to accept now i am falling into the bottomless pit...and still falling...i am not climbing up...i am falling...

i need to have a shorter vision...finish my private university with a pass...earning 2k plus to 3 k a mth...leading a peaceful life...living in the midst of the air...an HDB...is this life??i dunno...my mum says it is...my dad say i should not settle for this...if this my life i will just accept it ba...then i got to apologise to my parent i could not do them proud...i am so sorry...

~}Dreaming of you @ {3:59 AM}

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

today!!

first of all...yesterday was the loneliest night i ever felt...i actually went to buy a bottle of wine and mi and daron sat down with the chilling wine cup and was enjoying the drink...maybe this is the life of bachelor ba...wonder when my life will be filled with colours...my studies is still all grey..nothing to look forward too..i have a feeling...this sem will be a bad sem...

today went out with my bachelor grp again...well...this time something unhappy happened...haizz...it just the different perception between jeric and ash..haizzz...think ash is really piss off...it all because of the root of evil....money...haizzz...pls dun be angry if anyone of u see this...i leave some comments for both of u...i am trying to list some of ur perception out..i may be wrong...if i am..pls tell mi...

Ash....he a spendthrift...i feel he spent a lot...maybe bacause of the family he is brought up...he say he wants to save money...but i dun think he did...but he is quite on...maybe that y he spent a lot...

Jeric...he a saver...well...tell u what...mabe we should not be so obstinate about our perception about money or some of our values...maybe can change according to circumstances...for eg...u tell mi twenty buck is for ur piggy bank...then u tell mi no money...i am not saying its wrong...but maybe u can give in when the mood is right...we all went out to have fun...i know it hard to earn money and i am also like u...middle class only...give and take sometimes...but of course u shld not be like mi...always give in when the mood is right...cause i alway feel right when i am out...but sometimes muz also be more accomodating...like that u will also have more friends...and ppl say u on...but pls...after reading this pls dun avoid us or think i am out to say u r wrong...if i did say anything wrong..i would like to say sorry first...u may also like to apologise to ash ba...hope our friedship stays...remember...if bachelors dun even want to befriends themselves...then no one will...hope our bachelor club remains...

~}Dreaming of you @ {9:09 AM}

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Monday, May 08, 2006

sch!!

sitting on my comfortable chair,munching on oreo biscuits and typing my blog...oppss...did i say munching on oreo biscuits???i better stop..its 12 am and i am still doing that....i would had jog in vain ttoday if i still munch on that...i better STOP!!!

sch start liao...it the 2nd week already...time files and in 12 more weeks we are going to the exam again...recruited yiting to our grp for two modules already...she power in english man...it has strongly boost our grp strength since she join us...and we had a common goal...As....well...we work towards that...anyway tried to recruit matilda...but she rejected it...nvm...she in jenny grp...will do quite well too...

aiyo...12 more weeks to exam liao...this is really bad...i can't imagine having to cramp those knowledge we aquire in 13 weeks of schooling then go exam...it's somehow too fast...dunno i can make it a not...but no matter what i will give it a try...this is WAR!!!

i will never give up...fight till the end...die with dignity....honour...make the impossible possible...targeted As...4...try to break my last sem record...

~}Dreaming of you @ {8:57 AM}

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